This is the first time in my life that I’ve actually sat down and created a vision board. Which is really surprising because I’m a firm believer of manifesting. Funny story– a week before meeting my fiance, I was reading this book called “Manifest Now” and felt so inspired to take more control of my life. I hadn’t been in the best place in terms of friendships and relationships and just wanted to start fresh and surround myself with people who supported my dreams. I told myself that I was done dating jerks and that I would be open to dating because if I was gonna have kids before I turned 30, I needed to find the love of my life already. I told the universe exactly what I wanted and envisioned myself having the life I have today. A few days later, I started a new job and my now fiance walked into my design firm on my second day and now we are engaged and have two kids. Manifesting is VERY real!
I’d say my vision board is more of a to-do list. Having a hustle mentality comes natural to me because I’ve been doing it since I was 16 years old. The downside of this is that when I get too ambitious, I make it the most important aspect of my life and begin to neglect my basic necessities. I personally believe that living this high stress lifestyle for years at a time is what caused my hormonal imbalance and is the reason we struggled to get pregnant for years. So with that said, I’m making this year is about slowing down.
As most of you know, I have two 13 month olds, which is crazy because I feel like I was just walking out of the hospital with them yesterday. I feel like these years are so important for me to be fully present and really enjoy this season of motherhood because it goes by in the blink of an eye. So I’m putting my career on the back burner for just a little while to live a softer life and spend moments with my loved ones without the stress of work. Here are some other things on my vision board that I’m hoping will become a reality by the time the year is over.
1. Home Projects – I want us to finally have our primary bathroom remodeled and start landscaping plans so the kids have an area to play in.
2. Personal Events – Start to plan my twins Christening and make time to plan our wedding after what has been the longest engagement in history (Covid happened but STILL)
3. Making more time to spend quality time with each of my twins, individually. There are days that one or the other will need me more and get a sense of guilt after we have put them to bed because I feel like i didn’t spend the same amount of time with them and that they will grow up with some sort of trauma because of it. So, finding a way to have alone time with each while also giving myself grace is on the top of my priority list.
4. More home cooked meals, taking therapy seriously, prioritizing my health and most importantly — SLEEP.
5. Host more/nurture our relationships with family and friends. We seriously have the best of friends that are always there when we need them and want to make more time for them. I also want to make more time for my parents. The reality is that my parents are getting older and it makes me so sad. I see them once a week now and we go on long walks and definitely spend quality time together already but creating more moments and sharing experiences with them is something that I really want to prioritize.
